I'm Just Tired

I was a bit stressed out these past few weeks. No reason in particular, just life and all that comes with it. Because of this, I've started to notice little red flags, I was misspelling things, I was using the wrong words...and I brushed those things off as just having a bad day but I can't and shouldn't do that.
This is a lesson, not only for me but a reminder for all of us. If you don't feel well, pause, look at your symptoms, is it just stress? Could it be something bigger?
I've been keeping track of my health since then and thankfully, it seems my bad stretch has ended. My boyfriend told me I should go to the doctor and I know I should have, just to be on the safe side, but...I was scared. I don't usually get scared but yeah, I was scared and I let that get the best of me and I didn't go. Again, thankfully I am ok but I shouldn't be fearful, not when I know what fear and denial can do. Even typing that out, "I was scared", is not something I am proud of admitting. We shouldn't let fear and denial keep us from preventing something from happening to us. Health is precious and as I get older, I'm holding that closer and closer to my heart.
So today, I wish you awareness, I wish you energy to get you more in tune with your body. I wish you good health.
How are you doing? 

Luke

Luke Perry was one of my first crushes. My friend Ty and I would always talk about the most recent episode of 90210 when we would line up in the yard before school started. Conversations always turned to Dylan and Brandon. Hard to believe that he has passed at such a young age. Even harder to believe that it was from "a massive stroke". His death has once again started the conversation of how could this have been prevented and how a growing number of younger people are having strokes.  While I am grateful for an increased sense of awareness for the community, I am still left with the questions that will probably plague Luke's family for a long time. Could this have been prevented? Did they administer medicine in time? What else could have been done?
Life is fragile. To me, it seems to be more fragile as I get older. I'm starting to lose friends, some younger than me. They're leaving this world from heart attacks and blood clots...
How could this have been prevented?
A question I know we all ask ourselves after we get out the wails and the whys.
How could this have been prevented?
I should have known. We should have seen the signs.
But we can't know all the signs for everything...
And maybe, that's the hardest pill to swallow.