A Blessing In Disguise

Many times when things happen, we have to ask ourselves, "What could I have done differently?" or "What now?". Today I was faced with this and it's only now that I am seeing through the events of today and making sense of it all.

My job let me go today because they are moving my position to an out of state office. Granted, at first I was heartbroken but now I am seeing things a little more clearly. This is a blessing in disguise. I no longer have to go to a job where I am constantly reminded of my stroke. This is a new beginning. I should embrace it. Yes, not having a job is scary right now but I can't let it get to me too much because, what's not good for strokies? You got it, stress! 

I'm looking at this as just another facet of recovery. The final piece of the puzzle...no more stroke job, no more reminder of said stroke, minimized stress. Of course, this leads to the elephant in the room...health care! Luckily, I am covered until the end of July but what about after that? What do I do? Cobra is quite expensive as some of you know. And how does this take a toll on strokies? Do persons with pre-existing conditions have to pay a higher premium? Hmm, things to think about...tomorrow. For now, I'm going to sleep in tomorrow morning and enjoy the forced vacation. :)

What a wonderful way to end Stroke Awareness Month! 

Restless Sleep

Last night's sleep was restless. I felt like a kid the night before the first day of school.  I still can't believe I'm sitting at my work desk, typing from my computer and feeling slightly normal. I was so nervous to come back here...mostly afraid of the emails coming in.  I have 410 and my send/receive is still going...going...going since 8:30am this morning!

The only phone call I have gotten today was from my Dad.  I answered the phone all professional like and it was just him. haha. Now I'm sitting anxiously awaiting that first work call althought I'm pretty sure most of my co-workers are scared to give me any work.  I'm afraid to get any work!  I don't remember how to do everything as is expected but I'm not being discouraged by that.  Little by little, it will come back, right?

I have an appt with the Hematologist on Friday to see if I can get off this Warfarin.  I really miss sushi and green tea...well pretty much anything green at this point!  But it is, despite everything, a great day!