Thankful for 2010

It's New Year's Eve and I for one am happy to say goodbye to this year.  While I had a great year, I am ready to say goodbye and start 2011 new and healthy!

I had a long talk with myself after all this happened and decided that this stroke was the best and worst thing to happen to me this year. Worst because of the obvious but best because it made me slow down my life.  I'm a workaholic, I work myself into sickness haha. I want to be the best friend, best worker, best writer etc I can be and sometimes that doesn't leave me much time for well, just being me.  I've had to slow down.  I am keeping that.  I am going to take time for me.

This made me see peoples true colors.  I'm talking about people who I thought were my friends.  It's amazing how one thing can trigger a person's true self.  I didn't choose to tell people outright because I don't like people seeing me vulnerable, or in pain, or anything like that.  Remember, vain :) I didn't even tell my own father at first!  When I did start to tell people, I was surprised that some of them didn't even call or check on me.  Again this is fine, it was disappointing to me but being positive, one has to say, it's ok, these people needed to reveal their colors in order for you to get toxicity out of your life.  I am going to rid myself of bad energy and those who's part in your story are over.

Even though I can't drink or party or be in a large crowd this year, I'm going to have a great New Year's.  A quiet one filled with reflection, grateful for everything that was given to me this year, good and bad.

Happy New Year!